Thursday, September 6, 2012

n/a

you're my every day.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

n/a

n/a

the sun was directly behind you
i could've (might've) mistook
you

as a stranger

distance felt more natural
fled the crime scene
burnt the evidence
confessed

& there's no invisible light.


just a sunny day with no end.

Friday, June 15, 2012

"futures"


wake up at noon
make myself a crown
build a castle
wage a war
tear down the banner
sleep on the couch
find myself alone











Monday, May 14, 2012

drafts

"drafts"

it's true what i have said--

that i am
             weary. misplaced.
still stuck in the stream
                                        of
monotony. by daylight
                                       my
legs drag along the riverbed.

day-dreamt of ghosts bound
to the fences
                    their brothers
& sisters
                   once sat upon--

at night i am
                     drowning.

unable to lighten the weight
of myself.
               
remaining a student, a son, a
child
           to the eyes of forever.


(title-less) from Michelle Gottschlich / edited/chopped from Josh Zoerner


n/a

i dreamt of lake michigan. dreamt
that i could smell 
                             foul water & the 
waste of the mill furnace. 

watched Bethlehem’s stale candle. 
                                         & sister, 
i dreamt of you. 
you

       up to your shoulders in water.

from the beach,
i watched mercurial waves lick 
your
        clavicle. 

saw a host of gulls circle 
                                        over us, 
& waited for their cries 
                                    like distant 
door hinges. 

i thought of the rosary 
                                   mother gave you 
&  sister, i
                   stopped 
                                believing 

but prayed to the gulls anyway.
& i couldn’t get to father. so i
                                                waited 
for you. i stayed

perched at your window, 
                                         watching 
the garden tremble. 
                               sometimes hiding 
under your covers.
& it's true, 

i can smell your sweat laced with the 
dirt of summer.

sister, i wondered if you had
                                              drowned 
or forgot how to swim. 
i could teach you again.

(i thought you might like 
                                       the water) 

on your side of the bed i reason 
to myself how you didn’t cry at 

our stepfather’s funeral. you’d find me 
rose-eyed 
                just staring at your ceiling. 

sister,
          you are a russian doll 
& i keep you safe. 

& sister, in my dreams i wait for you, 
i wait just to hear for 
                                 your footsteps to 
crack on our floorboards. 


Sunday, April 29, 2012

fledgling

"fledgling"

i sit in a hotel suite writing
                                           about fame
& tradition.  ramshackle
                                        assemblage of
papers

            trailed by the affectionate cuddle
of cigarette smoke. i must've
                                              seemed old
& grey from her angle.
                                     even concrete &
glass put me to shame.

but that's not what other people
                                                 think. i am
a different season-- a hugeness of fiction.
an unending catherine wheel, that goes
     

           & goes.






Wednesday, April 25, 2012


"letters of note"

marvelous,

you are fooling around elsewhere.

we shared interesting places &
       listened to one another's antecedents.
i am certain
                   that is where this comes from.
i am half as good as i once was
                           and you see well enough.

to hell with it,
                         this is what we do
when we are at our best.

i am sure
               you were wonderfully
                                        naked

as you both tumbled the way novice acrobats
tumble. my memory will
                                                  place the shit
in the wastebasket, but this time you
                                                          cheated.

then my head flickers & i remember some old
words: "we have to hurt like hell
                                                     before we
get serious."